With Amelia being 5 months old now (crazy right?!) I have been doing some serious reflecting the last few days. I cannot believe where the time has gone and how different my life was a year ago. I was living in Brighton at uni and now I’m back at home taking a year off bringing Amelia up. I honestly couldn’t imagine things being any other way. As I have always said having Amelia has just given me such a drive for the future and for where I ultimately want to be in my life.
At what to most people seems like barely any time at all 5 months really is long, the bond I have created and the relationship I’ve developed with Amelia is incredible. It is a bond you cannot imagine until you have it. I can see her relationships with my family and friends and its overwhelming. I’ve been so blessed with the support I’ve had which has enabled me to be as confident and happy as I am with my life and this is a support that just keeps growing as the months go on. Amelia is nearly sitting up on her own and so much more interested and aware in toys and things that are going on around us.
We have been testing out loads of new baby classes and sessions and now our week is just so busy! With 2 classes on a Monday,1 on a Tuesday, swimming on a Wednesday, 1 on a Thursday and then a day off on a Friday! It its lovely to be so busy and to be meeting people with babies of a similar age to talk to and get advice from. In between all that I see my close friends a lot and when they are back from University. Being busy with a baby is key as it can be a lonely lifestyle with newborns and young babies and I would advise anyone to just suck it up and have the confidence to go to new places and meet new people; and if you hate it just fake a phonecall and leave and you never have to go again ha! (I actually haven’t done this, advice my dad gave to me before going to an under1’s that I thought I wouldn’t like).
With it being January I have obviously made some new year resolutions beginning with the classic lose weight, be healthier, better with money, yada yada. But one important one for me is to be grateful and to appreciate what I’ve got. I have a gorgeous healthy baby who couldn’t make me any happier and wonderful people to share her life with, I came across this article on a blog and loved it things constantly overlooked that EVERYONE should be grateful for; http://tinybuddha.com/blog/60-things-to-be-grateful-for-in-life/
Change can come into peoples lives uninvited or unasked for and for some people it can be a negative thing but it is something you have to accept. Life is constantly changing and you are never where you think you are going to be in a year or can never imagine how it is possible for life to be where it is .
I watched the film About Time the other night where he has the ability to travel back in time and to begin with every-time he does something wrong or when something doesn’t work out exactly like he expects he goes back and redoes it. I’m sure if we had this power everyone would use this thousands of times a day. Eventually he realises that he needs to live his life as it is and what will be will be. Or what you do is what becomes.
“And in the end I think I’ve learned the final lesson from my travels in time; and I’ve even gone one step further than my father did: The truth is I now don’t travel back at all, not even for the day, I just try to live every day as if I’ve deliberately come back to this one day, to enjoy it, as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary, ordinary life.”
I think ultimately to be in the place I am right now, I have fully accepted the change that my life took and realised as cliche as it sounds that ‘everything happens for a reason’.