Today was probably one of the hardest ‘mum days’ I’ve ever had.
I will rewind and give you some background to our latest issues…
-Also after looking at the above photo you might think this is going to be a lovely blog post with lots of lovely outdoorsy photographs…it isn’t! It’s a ranty Mum post I’m just throwing in one of the nice photo’s I got today before Amelia took a turn into meltdown city.
Lately Amelia’s sleep routine has just not been right. Her previous routine was her having a sleep in the middle of the day at 12pm lasting up to two hours then going off to bed around 7:30 no problems. But it started taking her longer and longer to get off to sleep. She was no trouble at all just sat playing on her bed and looking out the window as unfortunately the placement of her bed is right under the window so everytime a car goes by she has to look to see it. Then she would eventually nod off but it was taking her longer and longer to fall to sleeper sometimes resulting in her getting overtired and upset. It got to the point where she was still awake by 11pm then sleeping in until 10am which you might think you lucky thing your getting a lay in but were usually up and have plans and her getting up that late just completely throws her whole day out.
So I decided to cut the day time nap out which meant she was literally ready for bed by 5pm and an absolute terror all evening. It worked for the first night then the next day came with no nap and we had a really busy day and still she was wide awake by nearly 10pm. I honestly can’t understand why she isn’t just so exhausted that she just crashes but she isn’t. It starts with her usual playing with her soft toys on her bed, looking out the window then I go in to lay her down one to many times and then I can’t leave. Amelia’s hysterical unless I’m sat on her bed and then she starts playing again so I obviously have to leave but then she’s upset?! It’s a lose lose situation really and one I’m really struggling with.
Amelia’s always had quite a structured routine that I’ve really enjoyed having but I feel a bit lost right now. I’ve tried every option; the shorter nap, no nap, normal length nap yet she just seems to be missing her window each time. If she naps she’s not tired enough if she doesn’t she’s overtired.
Last night (Sunday night) I ended up having to leave Amelia in the end to scream herself to sleep. It was almost 10:30pm and I’d been in and out of her bedroom, I’d laid down with her, cuddled her, given her a drink but in the end I just had to leave her. She was hysterical and it’s so so hard having to do that but in under 5 minutes she was asleep. She was up normal time this morning (Monday morning) but was in a foul mood as the weekend of not enough sleep was catching up on her.
We went to meet some friends in the afternoon and I could tell Amelia was feeling a bit twitchy. She played nicely but was having little tempers when I had to get her to walk in the same direction and little things that others may not notice but as parents you pick up on these traits a little quicker. After she had her icecream she just completely lost it. Full on meltdown occurred, I was trying to get her dressed out of her wet things but she was just flinging herself around, hitting and screaming so I ended up carrying her back to the car soaking wet battling to get her in the car seat and going home. This meltdown was in front of I don’t even know how many people and I do feel like I handle Amelia’s tempers quite well but it is so hard. Amelia has quite a fierce temper anyway (not sure where she get’s that one from….) but when she’s hitting me, throwing her head back into me and just generally trying to do anything to hurt me it’s really hard to keep your cool. It’s almost worse as she’s getting to talk more as in between screams there’s usually a “NO HOME, NO CAR, NO MUMMY” thrown in there for good measure. Honestly I got in the car and had a little cry as I just hate those episodes. I get so stressed out and almost don’t remember it afterwards as it’s such a battle. It was the result of a toddler who hasn’t been getting enough sleep and is unfortunately struggling with the right routine at the moment.
Tonight (Monday evening) she just looked exhausted and spent most of the evening in and out of little tempers so I gave in and she was in bed by 6:30pm and asleep by 6:45pm.
Tonight has felt really good to actually not be in and out of her bedroom but I don’t think it’s going to last. Each day I’m really in two minds as to what to do sleep wise whether to let her have a nap or not to bother so if anyone has any advice please let me know? Amelia is very nearly 23months is that to early for her not to have a daytime nap? But then if she doesn’t have the nap she’s in a bad mood all afternoon/evening.
I’m stuck in no mans land with no routine after exhausting all my options?! So fellow Mum’s/Dad’s I need your help!
Thanks for reading!xx